b'day dream

had a dream within a dream:

we were young. i was going somewhere. my sister syila wanted to send me off, tapi muka muram pasal apa ntah. she walked out first, then waited for me at the curb. when i went to her, my brother iwan joined us. i said, "eh takpe takpe, tak payah hantar la."

and iwan said, "ayah pesan, adik-beradik jangan jauh-jauh."

then jihan joined us too, and the four of us walked together...

i woke up from this dream, and found us back when we were little again. iwan was sleeping peacefully by my side, and syila was next to him. i reached for the comforter, and gently pulled it up to cover them both. then i saw syila looking at me, and she beamed me a smile.

maybe it was the look in her eyes, but tears started streaming down my face.

this time i woke up, in my bed, alone, with a heavy tug in my heart.

*sigh*

tengah demam pun sekarang ni.
happy birthday anyway, syamil...