on wishes, resolutions &etc
happy b'day, mister. : )
you are OLD! you are old and grey and weary and smelly and crimpy and cranky,
in (belated) celebration of my good day, here's my grateful list:
i am thankful for my health, even though i get sick easily like a cow, for at least my heart still beats and my soul still lingers and i still get to greet another morning and another round of golf. hee!
i am thankful for ellie...
i am thankful for my financial situation, for although i'm not making much money i'm making more than i already need and more than i could figure what to do with, and for although my job is crummy it gives me a lot of rest time and no headaches and no heartattacks and i get to write and read and indulge in other things in life i love doing than getting stuck nine-to-seven bolted to a desk so that other people can get rich and the rest of the world gets whatever crap that's left and i don't get the chance to make one person smile everyday and change one person life in my lifetime.
and should be thankful (even though, really, i am not) that i don't have a gf, - that there's no one to yell at me, curse me, spew profanity at me, leer at me like i'm the crappiest person on earth, jeer at me like i'm just a child, and stomp on my heart with her high-heels the way girls alwaaaays do.
having said that, i would do ANYthing to see her smile at me, to see her eyes light up when she sees me, or the way her face softens whenever i do something special to her, to sit by her side listening to her nag about that office-lady she hates; and to hear her sleepy voice just before she nodded off to bed, to see her sleep in peace...
resolutions? to be less skeptical of the world, to be less contemptful of life. and perhaps i can find it in my heart to love malaysia again, after she and her girls have disappointed me so many times.
but, since we're talking about lofty dreams, here's a list of things that i really wish i could do before i depart this earth:
finish that godforsaken novel.
write a play.
write a screenplay.
write a piano sonata.
have ila play the piano sonata.
compose a symphony piece.
of course, the sad thing is, one of these will forever remain a wish...
you are OLD! you are old and grey and weary and smelly and crimpy and cranky,
in (belated) celebration of my good day, here's my grateful list:
i am thankful for my health, even though i get sick easily like a cow, for at least my heart still beats and my soul still lingers and i still get to greet another morning and another round of golf. hee!
i am thankful for ellie...
i am thankful for my financial situation, for although i'm not making much money i'm making more than i already need and more than i could figure what to do with, and for although my job is crummy it gives me a lot of rest time and no headaches and no heartattacks and i get to write and read and indulge in other things in life i love doing than getting stuck nine-to-seven bolted to a desk so that other people can get rich and the rest of the world gets whatever crap that's left and i don't get the chance to make one person smile everyday and change one person life in my lifetime.
and should be thankful (even though, really, i am not) that i don't have a gf, - that there's no one to yell at me, curse me, spew profanity at me, leer at me like i'm the crappiest person on earth, jeer at me like i'm just a child, and stomp on my heart with her high-heels the way girls alwaaaays do.
having said that, i would do ANYthing to see her smile at me, to see her eyes light up when she sees me, or the way her face softens whenever i do something special to her, to sit by her side listening to her nag about that office-lady she hates; and to hear her sleepy voice just before she nodded off to bed, to see her sleep in peace...
resolutions? to be less skeptical of the world, to be less contemptful of life. and perhaps i can find it in my heart to love malaysia again, after she and her girls have disappointed me so many times.
but, since we're talking about lofty dreams, here's a list of things that i really wish i could do before i depart this earth:
finish that godforsaken novel.
write a play.
write a screenplay.
write a piano sonata.
have ila play the piano sonata.
compose a symphony piece.
of course, the sad thing is, one of these will forever remain a wish...
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